'Alzheimer’s! It Should Be Outsiders'
By Jill Fawcett
1. Alzheimer’s! It should be outsiders
Cos that’s what I felt way back then
When first I thought something was happening
I’d forgotten both women and men.
I tried to stay in my own little world
And not make a fool of myself
But the more I tried to remember
The worse I thought of my health.
My brain was always tripping me up
And changing me bit by bit
I once was a very good driver
So why did they want me to quit?
I often went out with my daughter
And asked her to give me the wheel
I knew I could drive if she’d let me
And knew how good it would feel.
2. Alzheimer’s! It should be outsiders
Cos that’s what I feel sitting here
I’m thinking of church and the meetings
I’m thinking they’re all getting near
When I say to her sitting beside me
“What time had we better get ready?”
She says that I don’t have to go any more
That I must keep on taking it steady.
“Sit back and relax and watch some TV”
In this place that doesn’t feel real
I’m looked after well by the staff who work here
As they take me downstairs for a meal
I can tell that everyone’s trying to help
Cos they’re gentle and kind to me
When I don’t understand what they want me to do
They make me a good cup of tea.
3. Alzheimer’s! It should be outsiders
Cos that’s what I feel about life
I’ve forgotten my children and brother
Let alone my beautiful wife
I’m wondering why bed is so empty
When reaching to turn off the light
I get up, dress and go working
Because I’ve forgotten it’s night.
The person here with me is writing
I’m wondering what I should do
She tells me, “Everything’s going to be fine”
But really I haven’t a clue
I’ve forgotten to smile and be happy
I’ve forgotten what the heck went wrong
I’ve forgotten to say my goodbyes to you all
So she’s saying them for me. So long.